merr new year


it be de new year. merr new year. [emoji of celebration]

so um yeah i've been sick for the past two days. was taking nyquil and dayquil
and that helped. and now, physically, i feel better. but right now mentally,
because of.. whatever the active ingredient was, starts with an a i think, i
feel like i've slurped down 14 gallons of dumb f-ck juice. i can barely keep
a coherent thought in my head.

i'm doing better than i was a couple of hours ago. i actually just played a
round of tetris attack out of curiosity and i made it all the way to bowser's
stage on very hard so i guess i'm either really good at that game or.. uh.. ...?

i've completely lost my train of thought. and i have a very hard time making a
new one. let me tell you, interesting experience. would not recommend. this
isn't very fun, staring at a pan full of potato cube thingies and wondering how
the heck you're going to get them on your plate for a solid 2 minutes before
someone points out that you can just use a spatula.

i guess unrelated but yeah, i still feel decent about the librarian thing. i
haven't had the time to actually do research cuz' ya know i've been busy dying
and such but i still feel good about it. it's weirdly nice looking forwards to
the future again for the first time in a while. because let me tell you i'm
so done with this engineering crap. linkedin keeps sending me emails all like
"Hey Viz, picturing yourself as a Computer Hardware Engineer?" and i'm like "nah
mate, over that".

actually, i pitched the idea to the server that we should host a library. a big
curated and tagged and categorized collection of internet hyperlinks that is
meant to make the wonderful content of smaller internet artists and bloggers and
such much more searchable. because, like, there's a lot of good content that's
just going to be lost to the void of the feed. and google won't be of much help
because you can't really browse google. i'm imagining a cross between an actual
library website and, like, the Yahoo directory, back when that was a thing.

Park City Library. Good stuff. I'm gonna stop now because between the Tetris
Attack and this I've ran out of good mental energy for the next few hours.

Oh yeah new year's that's a thing. Uh. I've come a super duper long way this
decade and like holy crap if you were to go back a decade and tell me I'd be a
empathetic asexual sapphic polyamorous hacker librarian witch and like wow.

Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get. As such
I've completely given up on attempting to predict the future and my resolutions
list is empty because dangit I'm not in a stable enough position in life for
that to make any sense. If I make it through the year I'll consider that a job
well done. I'm doing my best. Can't help but keep doing that.

yes anywho imma stop oversharing and treating this like my diary. which i have
not used in a while, now that i think about it. huh.